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05/18/06--21:14: How's About An Update, Eh? (chan 1640301)

well sophomore year is finally coming to an end, and i still cant spell sophomore correctly. ah.. well its hard to imagine that in less than a week and one day, i'll be a junior. is it just me or is highschool FLYING by? i gotta admit i love the move i made to Harrison. just everything about it is amazing, besides some certain individuals. but thats alright. i have made some amazing friends this year, and idk everything just fell perfectly into place. i wouldnt have it any other way. as for this upcoming summer, i have volleyball...volleyball...volleyball, and did i mention more volleyball? well im actually pretty excited. except for the whole trying out for varsity thing. im actually extremely worried about that. but i think that if i try and show them all i got, that i may be fine. I also may have a job working at Pinnacle Orthopedics. which will be pretty cool bc its right down the street and it means two things. A.) now i HAVE to get my license much to my mothers dismay, and B.) the odds of me getting a car just got a whole lot better. .

 I am also going to try to get to Warped Tour this year, but im thinking that i'll be out of town when its here (june 28th) but if they are up north, i may see the tour up there. exciting i know. well my cousin garrett is graduating and thats pretty freaky to think that he'll be in college... ahhh. he's still the annoying 10 year old cousin of mine that used to punch me until he made me cry (i was 8 at the time) and now that he's 18... idk its just weird. Lets see my schedule for next year includes:


• Advanced Mixed Chorus
• AP US History
• Honors World Lit
  
• Algebra 2

Ya i decided to hold off on honors latin 3 until the spring semester so that i could still be in chorus, and yes i did move up and now im in the much better class. even tho im really going to miss the mixed class bc i loved singing with the guys they were a blast! and i also opted not to go thru with AP Lit bc of volleyball. although i kinda wish that i had, but thats alright im happy with my schedule. all of that plus *hopefully* varsity volleyball! ahhh im excited for next year.

On the personal side of things: everything is going really well, maybe too well? something bad will probably happen soon, but im going to try to keep this light and happy. recently someone kinda.... came back into my life after a a brief 5 month reprieve. its nice to have him back, tho things will never be the same. ummm things with Jeff are going great, and words cant even describe how happy i am when it comes to all of that with him! Katy and I are up to no good as usual, getting yelled at ALL THE TIME, and being made to clean up the library. its a hard job being so talkative and disruptive but i mean some one has to do it, right? I havent hung out with my old crew in a while, as in like... the nickleback concert was the last time we all were together, but i doubt that there will be any get togethers any time soon. but thats alright kel&bri are all i need anyways.

Well i think that i have bored you long enough with this post, dang i havent written this much in here in a very long time, and i guess i'll stop making all of my posts "protected" well if you'd like to comment go right ahead! only (6) more days till we're free guys! 6!!!!!!

molto amore
-camille





05/27/06--05:15: Its Summer... Already? (chan 1640301)

Wow i think that this is the first year that i've been in school where it really doesnt seem like it should be summer yet. not that im complaining, i mean no class is great and all, but im just not in the summer mood yet. oh well. ok so yesterday being the last day of school, david michael kevin shannon claire claire sarah joey caitlyn katy amanda me and jeff went out to eat at La Parilla, alot more people from last semester but it was still alot of fun, oh and Eubanks came too, how could i forget about him? umm then afterwards we all drove over to AMC to see X-Men 3, which in all honesty wasnt that good. I was kinda disappointed. but if u do go, wait until after all the credits, there is more of the movie. it was very shocking. then after the movie me katy jeff and eubanks went to coldstone. and then i came home. that was my friday,and it was pretty awesome.

Now as for this summer i may be going up to NY alot earlier than expected, some people in my family are really sick, and ya. but besides that i have tryouts in a bout a 2 months and im stoked, and idk im really ready this year to play and (hopefully) make varsity.

Lets see, anything else to say? oh yes indeed. well im not emo anymore, i've been really happy and thats good even with finals i was stressed.... but happy. lol so ya thinks are going really well over here and there isnt anything that i would change i hope that everyone has a good summer! what are you doing for the break?

molto amore
<3 Cam



05/29/06--20:17: Tuesday, May 30, 2006 (chan 1640301)











hmmm well it seems asif,


im crazy about that

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06/07/06--15:10: Wednesday, June 07, 2006 (chan 1640301)






So i thought that i would hupdate this, before i left to go to a party. well lets see summer so far has been pretty lax. just some sleeping late, late late nights and hanging out with some friends. i think that this summer will be alot better than last summer, and ya. thats the goal. ummm lets see im going up to NY/MA at the end of june, and hopefully i'll be able to go to warped tour with katherine, and ya that'd be fun. umm volleyball clinics are back in full swing and ya thats pretty exciting i guess. ummm im without a job, and i really want a car and my mom needs to make my appt for my license. socially everything is going kinda slow, slower than i'd like that is, but considering im back into my old role as social coordinator i think that my summer will be pretty busy. umm i like never see my bf and that kinda sucks, im not even sure that we're on the same page anymore, but w/e. ok well im out. i hope everyone is having a great summer so far.
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06/08/06--19:55: Friday, June 09, 2006 (chan 1640301)







I GET

MY LICENSE

JUNE 15TH BIA'S!!!!!









06/13/06--22:39: Wednesday, June 14, 2006 (chan 1640301)




so its 1:30 in the morning and i cant for the life of me, sleep. i have way too much on my mind. ever have a day like that? well im notorious for it. i get myself so worked up and anxious about stuff, im sure that there is a medical term for it somewhere out there. so im thinking that maybe just maybe if i express whats running through my mind down i might get some peace of mind. worth a shot right? ok well lets begin.im a firm believer in the theory that history will always repeat itself, just with new people. im sure alot of people would argue that, and say that its purely conquicidental, but i dont think that at all, though its pretty ironic that im not a big "Fate" person. i dont believe that things will work themselves out, and i definitly dont believe that everything will end up being good. i guess what im trying to get at, is that people just dont know that about me, and if you do consider yourself lucky. i guess what im really trying to get at, is that i've put up a wall lately, and im very exclusive about who gets in. its not just some theoreatical wall that can be penetrated with a late night phone call either. everyday im finding myself getting closer and closer to loosing the people closest to me. and no im not getting emo people, i've been happily content with my life for the last few months. typically when people put up walls its because they are either scared of letting someone in or are afraid of someone finding something out. i guess i can be a bit of both, and even though this has all been subconscious for the most part, i really have no idea on how to go about fixing it now that its happened. i try to be pretty open with people for the most part. thats what i enjoy, i enjoy learning about other people and letting them know something about me. the danger with this openess though is then you give them the power to hurt you. now as far as i can tell, everyone i know has been hurt by someone else at one point or another, and lets face it, we're going to continue to get hurt as we grow up and learn from previous mistakes, but i think what my problem is, im so afraid of getting hurt that the "wall" is only getting stronger and thicker. i want to be able to say that i can easily tell someone anything about me, or my horrible freshman year but the truth is, i tend to give out the bare minimum. only necessary facts. and being realistic here, details is what makes a story interesting. so why not tell people the juicy details? could it be that im afraid of their biased opinions? maybe im too content living in my own fantasy little world where i have everyone on the edge of their seat waiting for me to make my next move. who knows, i sure as hell dont. i know this much though, im not happy being this way, i want to be able to trust people again, and to let people in. i dont know how i'll get to that point, but i want to work towards it. another thing that i would like to change about myself would be the way that im comfortably falling back into some very bad habits. one of which and probably one of my most notorious habbits would be the way that i "test" people. i push buttons to see just how far i can get them to go, to test how much they care, to see just how much they love me. its bad, i know it is. but its addicting. i guess i have alot to work on, and if you read this and actually kept up with my incessant repetiveness and commonly used cliches im very glad i know you. its jumbled and it probably doesnt make any sense but what can i say, i never make sense anyways. im commonly misunderstood and mispoken for. but thats who i am.

-cam






06/23/06--18:53: Saturday, June 24, 2006 (chan 1640301)

 

 

 

hey ya'll i thought that i would give you all an update on my life so fair this summer. well lets see.... i have been very busy with friends and my social life. summer started off pretty darn slow at first, but its definitly gotten alot better. actually right now im at Katy's house watching some scary flicks with Ryan. lets see lets see... i leave for New York in 5 days and i cant wait. actually i can i dont want to go at all. umm boyfriend news.... hmmm well thats certainly a subj to talk about but not on here.... u want details u talk to me. well if you wanna hang out before i leave please call me.When i get back i wont have much time for doing that bc i will have volleyball. Anyways im gonna go continue watching the Texas Chainsaw Massacre... leave me some sweet comments.

-cam